Pretty funny, the title is a song from a punk band called The Clash.  Well…I’m close to about three years in the Marine Corps and I’m completely undecided about the Marine Corps. I hit three years July 18, 2008, meaning one more year to go. This year has benefits for me, I earn the Marine Corps Good Conduct Medal.

I get a $150;00 pay raise for three years as a Corporal, and the truth is…I really enjoy being in. I got to do so much that God has planned for me in my career.

I ask God what should I do and I don’t know his answer. I have these feelings though that if I stay in, I’m gonna hurt lives and benefit others. I really want to be in serving in an independent duty station close to home. I want to go to Bahrain and learn what the world is. I’ve had so much fun in th corps.

My job is not like what you see in tv or about the military, it’s a whole new world for others. I’m an administrator, a paper pusher, but you know what, I may not be doing no shooting, though I have been shot at, but I have an easy life. I’ve gained so much friends, attending an awesome church, I love it. God brought me to Camp Lejeune for a reason and I never understood it till I deployed.

I really want to see the world, I don’t mind going back to Iraq nor a boat trip. It’s really ok to me. I get scared for my family when I’m away from them, I really want to be with them and take care of them, but duty calls.

I ask for those that know me to please pray for me. I’m completely undecided…then there is college…

I’m undecided to go to college…either University of San Jose or University of Texas Pan American. I’m very interested in studying business administration. The reason why because the Marines pretty much made me a business man…in camoflauge utilities uniforms. I really want to say, “I did it”. When I got home I thought to myself, “I did it, I’m home…no more boom nor small bed…I’m finally home.” I want to do it again.

God is using me, as His Marine…in music, military, lots of things. He is first in my life. He is my love, without Him, I’m useless, I’m binded in chains without no, NO FREEDOM!!! I want to be where He want’s me to be, be with someone He has for me…

LORD…you know what you want to do to me…whatever it is, I’ll do it…Should I stay…? Or should I go…?